Widow's March

I'm finding hope through the heartache.
I'm finding joy through the sadness.
My strength pushes me forward despite knee buckling weakness.
I'm finding love through the flame of raging anger.
I'm brave, even though I'm scared.
It may not look pretty, but forward I march.

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